Saturday, September 08, 2012

The aftermath of a move

This whole year up to this point has been one crazy roller coaster. No wonder my blog showed no sign of life, being squashed under the pile of duties, obligations and stress. Somebody said that a move is more stressful than a death in the family, and I am almost prone to agreeing with that one.
We moved. Slowly, painstakingly, sometimes against our own lazy selves, we made the decision and put it into action. Had it only been a moving of stuff, enough in itself to drive a family crazy, we would have thought it fun and exciting. Do not misunderstand me: the whole physical process started in March and is ALMOST over. Which of course does not mean that all rooms in the present house are perfectly furnished and ordered :)
But the most tearing part of a move is THE CHANGE. You know what you have, and you expect to have it better in the new place, but the very thought of change is oh so terrifying!
I had to let go of people and places. I had to let go of my nice job. But most of all, I had to let go of my stubborn idea of "doing it all by myself". It worked to a certain point. And then it stopped working, because I needed to learn who is in control.
Having been a control freak all my life, letting go and letting God was not easy. Yet, looking at it now, in due perspective, I regret not understanding it earlier. Because, you see, that is the only way.
The situation now? A happy, harmonious (normal ;) ) family, kids enjoying their new school, both parents enjoying their new full-time employments. That's about the material status.

The more important status is the spiritual one, with the glorious realisation that I can cast all my burdens onto Him, that my faith needed testing and the fire of purification, and that I am nothing without Him.
To God be the Glory forever and ever.


Osagt said...

Hi Ann. Glad I found you. Did you move? Oh, let me guess.... Israel?

I just saw your reply on one of my texts. And I agree with you. Sweden is a socialist state which recklessly supress all expressions of other views of life.

Our leaders stripped us off both our history and our needs of a meaning which are not connected to materialism.
I visited the US three years ago, and thereafter I find this country unbearable. People are rude, inpolite, unwilling to help and self-conscious.

I guess it's just the consequences of the ingnorance and the individualism that makes people over here, never suffer from responsibility. Everything is guaranteed by the State. You don't have to care, neither for your children nor for your mother in the elder care. It's all fixed and done.

And people feel empty inside. They live in a loss of spirit but have no idea of whats wrong with them. The standard phrase is: "The society is evil and unjustic".

Justice for all and equality are just empty words in an empty country.

The state tries to overcome our guilt and bad repuatation from WW2 by leaving our doors open for people whose only contribution to Sweden are filling up empty apartments.

In all other aspects the immigration, especielly from muslims countries, leads to a massive economic countdown.

All this violence that is due to immigration, no one from the goverment or jutice systm, ever mentions these facts.

But I will follow your example and get the hell out of here.

You know me too are a beleiver of God. But my search for the right church is still going on.

Lately I have been trying the Mormon church. I know it's not considered as a "real" Christian churh, but most members are concerned and loving persons. But, yes there are things that not agree with med. But the worset thing is their hymns. Absolutly first class boring.

Send my regards to your family and Israel.


ann said...

No no no :) We moved from one Swedish little community to another one, a bit bigger. We have no connection to Israel, apart from the human and spiritual one. Of course, I would like to visit the country and wander following the footsteps af the biblical authors.
I attend a Reformed Congregation, one of the few in Sweden. Solid, reformed teaching - I wish I went to church more often than I do, but my job and my family eat up my time and energy. This is a lousy excuse, by the way.
You are right in your assessment of the Swedish society. It is doomed. Luckily, I still have my Polish citizenship and this way of escape is open for me and my family, if the conditions here bacame unbearable. US is also an option. I love that country, always have.
As to religion and choices: as hard as I want to understand, as strongly I would advise you to reconsider your decision about the Mormon path. No, they are not Christians, not by a long shot. They may seem nice and loving, but believe me, theology matters, and theirs is not biblical, but polytheistic and pagan. In the end it is THE CROSS and its message that matters.
I have been on many paths, growing up as a catholic, dipping my toes in three years of Jehova's Wittnesses organization, and thereafter landing on my absolutely dark atheistic bottom. But all that had a purpose - to lead me to the Real Christ and His Gospel of Grace. I will be praying for you, that God grants you His Love and Grace, and that He leads you to the true Christian church in your proximity.